HoM 115: Practical Self Honesty
03 October 2007
Hi , this is Jack speaking.
With regards to self - honesty and self - dishonesty , understand that – in terms of our specific focus on self - honesty in every moment – it ’ s a tool.
Our starting point of this entire existence, of this entire world has been self - dishonesty . And
we have, according to self - dishonesty , manife sted this world and the experience in which we
are experiencing ourselves , according to that specific starting point of self - dishonesty , of self -separation . What we're saying with self - honesty in focusing in every moment as yourself , is to merely have a tool to assist and support you in the process of self - realization .
Thus: self - honesty is a tool – self - honesty in application in every moment – to make sure that you are not in self - dishonesty with you. And so, self - intimacy will progress in the manifestation of yourself and as yourself, so you become self - intimate with you, as you.
For instance, an example would be… Veno recently described that heaven, in a year's process
of heaven, where we had been self - dishonest, and we manifested and experienced that self-dishonesty . Where we were dishonest with ourselves? In not allowing ourselves to… - we perceived that we didn't want to unconditionally participate in the forgiveness processes , because we were like: “What if…” and : “Maybe …” and – you know: all the doubts, uncertainties and concerns aro se – instead of being honest with ourselves in realizing that we were afraid and scared of doing the forgiveness processes and going through all those processes and committing ourselves and dedicating ourselves to ourselves, completely – because we feared losing ourselves and we feared giving up the dimensions , because we had defined the dimensions according to ourselves and according to who we are.
So, what happened , is : understand that the experience of you as life, of oneness and
equality, where you prove you to yourself , comes like a thief in the night. And – after a year's process – that very moment came for all in the dimensions as one together – that step into the absolute standing of who you are of oneness and equality as life – and when that moment arrived... we fell. Because, everything that we had done in that year, we did not do with self -honesty in every moment and we deceived ourselves .
Because, the truth of the matter was that during that year we didn't do everything one
hundred percent, for ourselves – because we feared losing the dimensions and losing our
‘ identity ’ and our ‘ self - definition’ according to the dimensions and who we ‘ perceived’ and ‘ believed ’ ourselves to be.
So, we fell – extensively. And it's now been another year and a half and we're still in the
consequential flow of events because of that fall and because of what we allowed in that starting point.
So, it's quite extensive if you fall and you know that you've been dishonest with yourself and therefore missed the opportunity of yourself to experience yourself as all as one as equal, as life as who you are. Thus, for instance, today we started over once again completely from scratch , because our starting point was again not clear of self - honesty, of oneness and
equality, and so we're starting again.
So, basically , [we’re] almost starting over each and every single day now , because it's becoming more extensive – because everyt hing that has been compounded now you kind of see already in like a day – where your starting point is – and if it's not in self - honesty, you'll fall and then you'll have to start over again.
So, instead of it going like a year and then only realizing : “Oh shit!” – and then you fall and only after a year discovering that your starting point has been of dishonesty, it now happens every day, which is much better. I prefer that, rather than going an entire year and then finding out : “Oh, dammit”.
So, you'll notice the difference between self- honesty and self - dishonesty in your experience of yourself in your world and mainly the sign would be: feelings, emotions, thoughts. If all those start compounding and you become frustrated , or old memories come f orth or future events start popping up in your mind, etc. – if that starts compounding , you know that you have to start over again , because your starting point of self - forgiveness and self - application hasn’ t been effective in the moment.
My suggestion would be to, in anyway, start again every single day. Start over. Just wipe out yesterday, begin the next day clear – as though, during the evening, you died, and you're waking up again the next morning alive – [a] complete clean slate – and you just start again. And so you start, have a fresh clear starting point of oneness and equality every single morning.
Remember that it's in the morning – so it's like the day, and so you progress. So, each day is the opportunity for you to make sure that your applic ation is of the starting point of self -honesty. I f your starting point , the moment you wake up, is not self - honesty or is of self -dishonesty , your entire day will be experienced according to your starting point. So , therefore, it's now taken day by day.
So, therefore, between self - honesty and self - dishonesty , you'll notice it according to the experience of yourself during the day – if your starting point was self - honesty or self -dishonesty .
Thank you very much.
This is Jack.